I started this book because I wanted something that could give me even 1/10th of the hope that Aunt Katie did. I called it Rays of Hope. It is mostly pictures glued to pages in a book. I didn't realize that the book would get super thick if I glued something to the front and back of every page. Some of the pictures are my own art, some are from magazines, and some are just things from the internet that made me smile. Some of them are blurry, some are pixelated, some are wrinkled. I think that part of what makes this book so special to me is that it was really the only thing I had control over when I felt like everything in my life was spiraling out of control. I got to choose every single thing that went in it. Nothing I didn't want would go on the pages. I glued sayings that I found inspirational to some of the pages. It's something that always makes me feel a little better when I'm in a really sad mood. I really want to finish it and change a lot of it to fit with my life now. But here are a few pictures, and I will be sharing more on some Tuesdays and Thursdays when I don't normally post.
|This is the front cover. I had to use so many layers of paint to cover |
the original cover. It started as an old book about the Mafia.
|This one scanned a little blurry. The picture is the first watercolor I ever did.|
It was the size of a full page, but I cut it up to fit in my book.
When I was feeling super emotional today, I wrote a song/poem thing. I might share it on here on Thursday. Maybe.