Checking In

I've been in a weird mood lately.  I've been feeling very stressed and depressed.  I don't want to go sleep at night because I know that once I go to sleep I won't want to wake up.  I've been having a lot of compulsions lately, the C part of OCD.  And they make me feel like I'm crazy.  I don't even want to talk about them here because I don't think most people would understand.  I don't even understand and I'm the one it's happening to.  And I don't know who to talk to about it or how to get help when I can hardly even bring myself to leave the house most days due to my social anxiety.  I have stuff to blog about but I haven't felt like blogging.  I haven't felt like doing much of anything besides eating and watching Netflix.  I just don't know anymore.  I'm just letting you guys know I'm alive but I won't be blogging again until I feel like it.  It might be tomorrow; it might be next week.  I don't know.