What is Luv?

Lately, my blog posts have contained more than one main thing that I want to discuss and this one is no exception.  Prepare for me recounting this guy being a complete jerk, a movie review, and some questions I have.

So first off, I have learned a very valuable lesson that I'm sure will serve me well for the rest of my life.  Do not try to make friends on Craigslist.  The fact that you are posting in the "strictly platonic" section on Craigslist does not necessarily mean that guys who read your ad for JUST FRIENDS will even know what the word platonic means.  Or if they do know what it means, then dude, I seriously have a knack for making guys really like me after we meet in person.  I met four Craigslist guys, 4 guys that I confirmed with in advance that I only wanted friends.  4 guys who said they just wanted friends too.  4 guys who met me and 3 out of the 4 guys who liked me as more than a friend.  2 guys who I had to let down gently.  2 guys who agreed we could still be friends (which, if you remember, was all I wanted the entire time).  2 guys who I haven't heard from since they said that, yeah, we could still be friends.  1 guy who seemed to understand that I just wanted a friend.  1 guy who acted like all he wanted was a friend too.  1 guy who had no other friends besides me.  1 guy who I hung out with 4 times ever.  1 guy who texted me asking if I wanted to go on a road trip to Wyoming with him, JUST AS FRIENDS.  1 guy who recently asked me what church I go to and if he could come along, because he wants to get his life back together.  1 guy who I received an invitation to go on a road trip with him after we've only seen each other 4 times, supposedly just as friends, and that I thought WTF?! and didn't reply to just then because I was Skyping with G.  1 guy who I didn't end up replying to because I was trying to formulate some sort of reply other than WTF?! We've only ever seen each other four times ever. No, I won't go on a road trip with you!  The story I plan to tell begins here.  Yesterday was Wednesday.  I didn't realize this until 7:00 at night yesterday.  I have church on Wednesday at 9:30.  The guy, M, really enjoyed it when he went to church with me (or so he led me to believe).  I didn't want to have to wait at a sketchy bus stop after church on the street where the drug dealers and homeless people are.  (I have nothing against homeless people. Many of them are really great.  Just some of them have mental illnesses, and yeah, they frighten me.)  So I texted M to see if he wanted to go to church with me and apologized for the last minute-ness, and explained how I didn't realize it was Wednesday until literally the minute before I texted him.  He replies that I am a waste of time, and he's already in Wyoming.  (Only with slightly more colorful and rude language. I like to keep my blog as close to G-rated as possible.)  Me, being such a nice person, tries to be the bigger person, and apologize for not replying to his road trip invite text.  Then he cusses me out and says mean and hurtful things to me, which I could deal with.  But then he acts like I led him on!  I had very clearly established that I only wanted to be friends, so he had no right at all to accuse me of leading him on.  And then he says that I wasted his time dragging him to church or whatever, when he asked me if he could go and then acted like he enjoyed it.  By this point I am very very very mad.  So I texted him that I thought he was a nice person but apparently I was wrong.  He replies that he thought I was nice too.  And that he had liked me.  Like I even care how he felt about me.  He's obviously a jerk.  I am nice.  Then he says that maybe he is a jerk, but soon he'll be a rich jerk.  So the guy throws away the only friend he has in the world for money.  Awesome.  So then I texted him to please stop texting me, and surprisingly, he did stop texting me.  I'm just glad I didn't waste more time with him.  I was pretty upset by then, so I didn't go to church, although G offered to take me.  Instead, I went over to G's for a while and he shared his dinner with me and we watched a movie and cuddled and he said tons of nice things and cheered me up and made me no longer want to punch something.  Sidenote: Do not watch a movie called Blackout.  It sounds really interesting, but in reality, it is not.  You will spend the entire movie waiting for it to get interesting, and then it finally does for about two minutes, and then the ending is horrible too.

Movie review time.  (Blackout wasn't actually worth reviewing.)  The first movie I watched on my first visit to G's (well, the first visit where I went inside and wasn't just meeting his chickens), was called Suspect Zero.  It was such a good movie.  It's about a serial killer who targets serial killers, and then some people are psychic and it's all really crazy.  This movie was fantastic, so good that G and I hardly made out during it at all, because we were paying attention, unlike Blackout.  If you like movies that make you think, movies about serial killers, or just movies where crazy stuff happens that makes you say "Whoa", then you should definitely watch this movie.  I give it 8 stars out of 10.

Which brings me to my questions, and some stuff that I just need to share.  So if you couldn't tell by the fact that I included him in every single aspect of this post, I really like G.  More than I've ever liked any guy.  So the thing is that he likes this other girl too.  And it's not even in a he's a total jerk, how could he way.  He's known this girl for a long time.  And he has been completely honest about it.  Nothing has happened between them yet.  It's sort of tearing him apart that he likes both of us so much, and he knows that eventually he'll have to choose.  But he has been hanging out with me, and not with her, for nearly every single night since we've met.  I think this is the first night since we started dating that we haven't either gone out, stayed in together, or he's come over at like 1 in the morning, because he wants to kiss me.  And it wasn't because he was with her. He just didn't want me to get sick of him, like that would even happen.  I trust him.  He appears to be completely honest with me.  At least, he has shared some very personal things that aren't the sorts of things you tell just anyone.  He calls me angel, and I love it.  Sometimes he calls me his awkward angel, but he keeps saying that I'm not that awkward anymore.  We make each other laugh a lot, sometimes while we're kissing, and then it makes kissing rather difficult.  We chat via IM on Skype all day long while he's at work, when he'll have little breaks.  And he has started saying, "I luv you", on chat.   It started out as, "I really like you a lot", and has recently progressed into luv.  So my question is, what does luv mean? I feel like it's a step above like and a step below love, like maybe he's trying it out before he actually drops the "l" word, and I do not mean lesbians.  (Scott Pilgrim, anyone?)  And the thing is, I think I'm falling in love with him.  But I can't help but worry that he'll choose this Ivy chick over me.  She's probably closer to his age, for one thing.  I don't really feel like I can compete, and I don't want to be hurt.  I've let him know that no matter what happens, I will never hate him.  And if he chooses her, I do still want to be friends.

Where to Go in Seattle: Bellevue Art Fair

G took me to the Bellevue Art Fair today, and we were there for 6 hours.  We had delicious Philly cheesesteaks for lunch and shared a lemonade. The art fair was huge, with well over 300 vendors total.  I had a fantastic time and took lots of photos.  I'm only going to caption a few of them.

My reflection is soooo distorted

I love this

You can't tell in this picture, but these paintings were awesomely textured.

love love love love love

most creative recycling I've ever seen

I love this guy's art style

G bought me a print of this :)

chalk artist with mad skills

coolest fountain ever

Really, Hollywood?

You guys may or may not know that there is a new moving coming tomorrow to a theater near you.  This movie is called Cowboys vs. Aliens.  And all I can say is: Really, Hollywood? Have you just resorted to throwing things into hats, picking two, then having them battle one another for your movies?  I mean, we've already had Vampires vs. Werewolves, which, by the way, I have still not watched.  Who could ever forget Cats vs Dogs?!  Oh, you did?  Yeah, me too.  And then there was Monsters vs. Aliens.  I see the pattern.  We've also had Scott Pilgrim vs. The World.  And if you're having someone fight the entire world, you're clearly running out of ideas.  So Hollywood, I've decided to make your job easier and contribute some of my own ideas for your new versus movies.

Ninjas vs. Dolphins
Pirates vs. Zombies (and its sequel, Zombie Pirates vs. Dolphins (since obviously the dolphins will defeat the ninjas; ninjas can't breathe underwater and their weapons will weigh them down and they'll sink and drown)
Spies vs. Amish People
Yarn vs. Kittens
Robots vs. Demon-Possessed Snowmen
Radioactive Llamas vs. Monsters
Nyan Cat vs. The Universe
Self-Aware Pizza vs. Sasquatch

I think that's enough to keep you occupied for a few years anyway.  No need to thank me Hollywood.  Well actually, a mention in the credits would be nice.

My First Guest Post

I did my first guest post ever.  It's located here.  I feel like I'm a real blogger now, since other people like me enough to have me write on their blogs : )

But fear not, dearest minions, I am not using that blog post as an excuse to not do a proper post here.  I think you guys know me better than that by now.  So you get two posts for the price of one! And of course, the price of one is free, unless you feel compelled to donate to my not-going-blind fund, she says hopefully.

I have some movies to review for you today: Super 8, Crazy/Beautiful, and She's All That.

Super 8 was a fantastic movie, action-packed enough to make it worth watching in theaters.  Although, it was not so action-packed that it made my eyes have trouble focusing and caused me confusion.  That happens sometimes, like with the new Harry Potter.  The story was fairly unique, as unique as stories can be in these times, when so many movies have already been made.  Some sort of creature has come to a small town and is making life difficult.  It is causing disappearances and a few deaths.  Soldiers are trying to cover something up.  There are some kids who end up in the wrong place at the wrong time, and they get involved with it.  Besides that, there's this young love sort of thing going on.  I thoroughly enjoyed the movie.  I give it a 9 out of 10, merely for the fact that I feel like 10 out of 10 must be saved for the best films of all time, like the original Star Wars trilogy and Fifth Element and Stardust.

That brings me to the next movie.  G told me I should watch Crazy/Beautiful and She's All That, because they're his favorite love movies, so I did.  Crazy/Beautiful is the tale of a scholarly Latino boy meeting a somewhat crazy/partying/lashing out white girl.  They fall madly in love and are both positive influences on one another.  She teaches him to lighten up and enjoy life more, and he helps her to reconnect with her father.  It is a really good movie, and I enjoyed it immensely, and I don't normally watch love movies (I think you guys know that).  I would rank it up there with A Walk to Remember, but I might like it a little better, since it's not sad.  I give it 7 out of 10 stars.  G is trying to get me to enjoy life more, therefore the recommendation.

He took me out last night to have burgers, fries, and shakes.  We sat in his car and ate.  I introduce him to the deliciousness that is dipping your french fries in your milkshake.  It was especially perfect for those fries, since they were fairly salty.  Then, when he was driving me home, he kissed me at nearly every red light.  He's started calling me angel, which I really enjoy.  We are going to an art festival this weekend and I'm really looking forward to it.  I've never been to an art festival, and it looks like a lot of fun.  It's also pretty much 3 different art festivals all in the same vicinity, so it's pretty huge.

She's All That is the story of the most popular guy in school betting that he can turn any girl into the prom queen.  He makes a bet on it.  Enter geeky, klutzy art student girl.  He asks her out and gets rejected.  He starts borderline stalking her, showing up at her work, showing up at her house, and finally gets her to agree to hang out with him.  She becomes popular because of him, but remains the same person she was, only with a makeover.  Spoiler alert, but not like you couldn't see it coming.  She finds out about the bet and gets really mad.  Anyway, I won't give away the ending, although you can probably guess.  I give it 6 stars out of 10, mainly for being so predictable.  G insists that he didn't bet on me.  He claims that I'm really beautiful, and that I just don't realize it.